Wait, You're Going Too Fast

September 21st,

  To a point I can afford to say this day has been arguably the best spread on the bread of CAP ever since the bread of the experience had been baked. Ten am was a beautiful time to awake and what goes even better with the soul is three hours of therapy questions with a house full of people you hardly know.  Total bum status has now been reached, it's two pm and no one stands but we all wish we had somewhere to go, so we do.  Me, Erinn, Symmer, and Teleia go to walmart, we only appear mildly drunk but oh well, mello yellow makes everything better.  The day is yet to see it's maturity. It's eight pm and we're driving out to the local drive-in theatre to see Percy Jackson S.O.M. and The Heat, even if the movies weren't all that great the amount of fumbling and flopping about we made was substitute enough for any lack of action or humor.  Now we're back but no, we're not tired.  Step Up, it's two in the am but whatever, a movie together is a thousand times better than eye's darkening in silence.  Three-thirty, Katy Perry's documentary.... what?? why am I watching this.... hold on, i'm not, i'm in my room my mac says 4:44 Sunday, September 22.   Funny. I thought time passed by the day, I guess these one's come in seconds.  Yesterday followed today's heals so viciously it's loosing it's breath and today is following tomorrow with such lust that it's taking my breath.  I thought we we're going to remember time, I thought all those years would be memory but they're not, they're emotion. They're feeling, they're a color in my heart, collages of emotion become paintings of pain, paintings of pain become masterpieces of grace, and now, now there's nothing but a love. A love for what we all aim for, this hope we pursue, it's racing by so fast how will we grab on? Conceptional thought becomes ideas, ideas intent, intent, action, action behavior, and behavior lifestyle. Wait! I'm ninety-five, i'm dying. Was that how short it was?  I guess I didn't have that much time to decide after all. Lord, take me with you.